there and back again

this darkness swoops down from the sky
rises from the ponds like a morning mist gone bad
surrounds and smothers my thoughts, my airways and my will
it has chewed away at my soul - already tattered beyond recognition
as if a vulture had descended upon my crumpled form
peck, peck, peck
nothing much left
this darkness with no beginning and definitely no end
rips apart my senses and the meaning of life itself
hurricane forces mounting higher
drifting toward the lip of the volcano
ready to erupt and remove the want and the wanted
this darkness taking control of control itself
leaping with flames of destruction
the essence of life slowly succumbing to tragedy

demon dedication

the demons
evil incarnate
themselves destructive
no longer hide
beneath the rafters
under the eaves
and along the lonely pathways
of life and living
they stand stark naked
in the hallway
in the garden
just hovering
taunting
menacing
acusing
berating
swirling their concessions
dodging the sweeping attemps
of elimination
irradication
their destination
holds strong against
our nature
our efforts
of denial
and frustration
we are prisoners
held helpless and hopeless
against their deeds
their intent
our breathing
sucked down deep
into their sewage
into their clutches
of deceit
I stand
useless
and tied to emotions
that have no bearing
no forces
against the evil demons
and watch
with a pain filled
soul
as the demons
drag him down
far beneath the layers
of love and understanding
to a place
where darkness
rules and I am
denied the satisfaction
of pulling him back
where love still smolders
and hope is fading

slipping away

life
like philo dough
transparent
like a bedroom window
fragile
like a shard of glass
crumpled
like an old newspaper
broken
like a china tea cup
lost
like my helpless soul
life
like the setting sun

Dreams Die

the elusive dream
within inches of your fingertips
blowing softly in the breeze
and you reach out
inches short of capture
you try again
and faith flows with the current
time is freefalling
as the wind blows dust
and the particles
fall beneath you
life meanders
without resources
resting softly
upon the face of reality
entombed by frustration
sorrows implode
as destiny weeps
on your footprints
the tide waiting
for possesion
overtaken by impulse
the shadows darken
as dreams rise
and your soul is free

my life spiraling out of control, swirling near the depths of despair and darkness, surely when the bad starts it rolls faster and faster becoming bigger and bigger while the immense intensity of frustration and unhappiness builds and becomes a pyramid that reaches to the gods of doom, all reasoning is lost, misplaced and ignored including punctuation, grammar and following the rules - rules that have no place or meaning in my plunge to the bowels of the earth, once again the guilt I wear glows like the northern lights and shooting stars, stars that end with a splash no one hears or cares to see, alone, solitude now an enemy, my soul melting with the drama of self induced hopelessness

Infinity Edge

Standing on the edge of the infinity pool. Surveying my options while thoughts swirl inside my head. My location colors my perspective about the situation. Far out into the landscape my eyes catch sight of the pain and indifference bounding over hills and scrub. A subtle wind blows despair in a whirlwind. Sagebrush tumbles defiantly across the flat lands.

My point of view changes rapidly with the weather. My inhabitions fluctuate with restless abandonment. The direction in which my life is traveling becomes clouded with doom. Cold temperatures slice though my emotional defenses. A wisp of doubt lingers just below the surface. My body frozen like an ice sculpture - solid and opaque.

My armour chipping and charred by reluctant choices. Energy once abundant and usefull now dormant and minuscule. My posture weak with sorrows and deceit. The No Vacancy sign of courage faded and bending. My soul shredded like Carolina Bar B Q.