my life spiraling out of control, swirling near the depths of despair and darkness, surely when the bad starts it rolls faster and faster becoming bigger and bigger while the immense intensity of frustration and unhappiness builds and becomes a pyramid that reaches to the gods of doom, all reasoning is lost, misplaced and ignored including punctuation, grammar and following the rules - rules that have no place or meaning in my plunge to the bowels of the earth, once again the guilt I wear glows like the northern lights and shooting stars, stars that end with a splash no one hears or cares to see, alone, solitude now an enemy, my soul melting with the drama of self induced hopelessness